Happy St. Patties Day!!
What Do I wish For?
Thats the Question of the day..
I want wish for a successful feature
Lately this wish seems so far out of my reach, like I will never be able to accomplish what I really want out of my life..
I think after switching my major so much and disappointing myself in so many ways with these changes, I have caused a lot of uncertainty in myself. a lot of doubt, a lack of self confidence.
I am not that type of girl
I am not the one who is so unsure of herself that she doesn't know which directions to go in.
Although I am not to that point yet I feel like I am because of all the doubt I have..
I personally find people who sit around and complain about their life annoy as heck, if you want change or something in particular get on your feet and cause the change.. Change doesn't come by sitting around.
So my issue isn't really that I cant make the change happen, I just don't see it happening for myself. I have this wonderful gift of sabotaging myself. Putting so much doubt in my own little head is what I like to do. So as much as I try to just take each day as it comes, its hard.. Its hard to shut off a planners brain.
I am also not much of an optimistic girl, nor am I pessimistic, I like to refer to myself as realistic.. I look at the most realistic outcome. What seems like the most logical at that time, or what the most logical end result from whatever I am doing. I find that this gets me in trouble, because I dont always tell myself 'Oh it'll work out, everything will be fine' I think I do this because when you are raised in a dysfunctional family you learn pretty dang quick not to shoot for the best outcome cause it just causes you so much pain and grief..
These next three semesters of school are going to be the most challenging, but when I get my first job.. That first check, will feel like such a success, such an accomplishment..
Until then.. I wait, I go to class, I work my butt off and I push forward towards success..
I moved the days around a little for what I will be writing about, I am on spring break so this week has consisted of studying and sweats which no one wants to witness or see.. nor does it need documented in my blog :)
Day 3. A photo that makes you happy
Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6. Your most embarrassing moment
Day 7. Whats your most prized materialistic possession?
Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!
Day 9. What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10. What are some of your favorite make up products?
Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13. A Good Self Tanner..
Day 15. Write about your dogs :)
Day 16. If you could, what would you tell yourself before you graduated high school?
Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18. Post and outfit pic..
Day 19. Write about your significant other
Day 20. Write about school and why you love it or hate it.
Day 21. Write about your most vivid childhood memory. Post a picture of you taken over ten years ago.
Day 22. What did you do today?
Day 23. Who's your celebrity look alike?
Day 24. What is God teaching you presently?
Day 25. Style 31. Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26. What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27. Who are your favorite bloggers?
Day 28. Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29. Your day, in great detail
Day 30. What do you think is going to happen to you after you die?
Day 31. Your favorite quote
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