Saturday, March 5, 2011

What makes you uniquely you?



This was actually a hard blog for me to figure out an answer for, I had to ask a friend what makes me unique because honestly I think we are all unique. You wont ever find someone who is like you in every single way or someone who has gone through the exact same things you have been through. I know in my case its a matter of personal experiences I have had in my short twenty years of life its what has shaped me into the person I am today, whats caused me to believe in what I do.

So Unique, I am unique not because of what I can do although I am double jointed in my thumbs and have a horrible back. Its what my life has brought me, what lessons I learned at a young age and how I choose to deal with them. 
As stated in yesterdays blog (go college me.. who uses stated?), my parents are divorced I was not lucky enough to have a perfect childhood where everyone got along and idealism was present. But I was lucky enough to be given a wonderful Mother!! It came with its challenges of listening to your parents fight, dealing with emotional things that no 7 to 10 year old should have to deal with. But as a result, I weigh my decisions more then any of my peers would. I choose things based off of what the end result would be, I have chosen a man to share my life with because he is opposite of my dad and I know he would make a perfect father for my kids. I know how precious relationships are with people and why I should keep the people I find most valuable close. 

My brothers, who doesnt love brothers :) I know I love mine.. My brothers mean more to me then most brothers do. We have unspoken codes we use to protect each other we developed through growing up. And no matter how hard things get we will always be there for one another.. Both of my brothers have chosen to give apart of their lives up to serve our country and that is something I am very proud of because as I write this blog one of my brothers Dustin is in Montana, although he is out of the Marines he went through things I couldn't imagine dealing with over seas. And Chad is in Georgia right now away from his family in Army MOS schooling. In some ways more then others they are selfless. I appreciate them. 

I am allergic to Nuts.. Not all nuts every nut but peanuts which I thank the lord for because Monday through Friday my protein source is peanut butter.. This is a recent discovery for myself, and I am not going to lie I was rather sad. I like nuts, I like granola and I cant eat it because it has almonds in it.. Yet I still eat it like an idiot, and get an allergic reaction gladly. Although I am stopping myself from doing this because I dont want to one day go into anaphlatic shock and die from it. Nuts arent worth that much to me. But I am unique 
because I am an idiot when it comes to eating nuts :).

I've changed my major five times nursing, respiratory care, dietetics, speech pathology and now drum roll please... Community Health science. I am told this is typical for a child like me, but I dont feel typical sometimes I feel out of control, on my own little planet the only one suffering which would show my egocentric tendencies. I have also moved schools five times because I had a problem finding what felt right not only with a major but with what  town university was right for me. So more life experience under my belt as I like to look at it but as Kendra put it, I am capable of so much I just do not know what I want to do besides helping people. I think I have found my major but honestly I gave up declaring it verbally. 

Anorexic.. That word has so many emotions inside of it for me. I am one, I was one. Its something I deal with mentally almost every day. But I am proud to say that I have not and will not go down that road again. Its a badge I wear something that makes me me, I am not proud of it and dont want to sound like I am bragging but its how I chose to deal with what happened during my parents divorce. I dont have some drastic story about being on my death bed or anything like that but at my lowest I felt the most powerful and that makes me sick now. I eat food now and look at food for fuel, I make healthy decisions to avoid that voice in my head, and I avoid the scale to keep myself sane. Its something I fear everyday feeling like that again, feeling so horrible about myself that I didnt love me. And its what makes me make tell myself I am beautiful and do things to make me feel good.

This last one is more visual then listening to some story I have about myself. When I turned 18 moved away from home, I knew I would be facing challenges that I would need strength and courage for but I wanted something to be there for me to remind me that I am capable of anything I want to accomplish. So I sat through two sittings a total of six hours to get 
this.. 


Japanese legend says that a koi fish swims up Red River and if they can make it over Dragon Falls their head gets chopped off and they become a dragon. It represents strength and perseverance, two qualities I always want to have in myself. 

If you sat through all of this.. Thank you.. Evidently I have a lot that makes me unique :)


Day 1. What do you find most challenging in your life right now?
Day 2. What makes you uniquely you?
Day 3. 
A photo that makes you happy
Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6. Your m
ost embarrassing moment
Day 7. Whats your most prized materialistic possession?
Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!
Day 9. What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10. 
What are some of your favorite make up products? 
Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13. 
A YouTube video
Day 14. Style 31. Post an outfit pic!
Day 15. 
What do you wish for?
Day 16. Write about your dogs :)
Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18. If you could, what would you tell yourself before you graduated high school?
Day 19. Write about your significant other
Day 20. Write about school and why you love it or hate it.
Day 21. Write about your most vivid childhood memory. Post a picture of you taken over ten years ago.
Day 22. 
What did you do today?
Day 23. 
Who's your celebrity look alike?
Day 24. What is God teaching you presently?
Day 25. Style 31. Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26. What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27. Who are your favorite bloggers?
Day 28. Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29. Your day, in great detail
Day 30. 
What do you think is going to happen to you after you die?
Day 31. Your favorite quote

1 comment:

  1. i love the top picture! my parents are divorced too, it adds a lot to who i am now.
    i love the tattoo, you write so beautifully. i loved reading this.

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